the time is now

hey guys. i used to love John Cena. Hence the title aha. Anyways so for one of my fifty twos i mentioned that I would like to stick to a diet and exercise regime so here I am, trying to do so. It's not so much as a diet its more of just organizing and being more careful when I eat. Pinterest (if you are saying 'huh' right now, open a new window, grab yourself a drink and get your butt on Pinterest!), taught me how to be crafty so I made a meal planner out of an old multi photo frame I had laying around. (literally it was laying on the floor behind the couch LOL). So now we can plan our meals for the week and it actually gets you excited to cook healthy meals. My worst problem is just deciding last minute what to make and you always resort to something quick, easy, and completely lacking nutritional value lol. (The power just went out!) 

Here is a picture of our new meal planner. Pretty cool, all it took was a frame, scrapbook paper, stickers, and a dry erase marker. That was our delicious Valentines day meal! Mmm. So anyways, thought it was a cool, and cost efficient idea and we won't waste paper trying to plan meals! Just wanted to share. 


So Valentines day, hope you were all wooed and spoiled. I myself received Lovestruck by Vera Wang and couldn't be happier. Go check it out if you haven't!! I also got a little crafty with my gifting this year. Adam is the MOST IMPOSSIBLE human being to buy gifts for. He never asks for or wants anything. So thankfully a video game was mentioned that happened to be released yesterday so I was in the clear, but he knew about it so I had to let my creativity shine elsewhere. So here is a little picture of his card; 

Yes i stole these paint chips from Wal-Mart, but I don't think they will be suffering from it. Anyways its cute, crafty, I got to be mushy and romantic yet still cool at the same time, and the best part; he loved it <3.    

As for the afore mentioned diet and exercise. I've done three days of Insanity workouts so far, today will be 4. And my body HATES ME. I'm so sore I can barely go up and down the stairs with the dog. But it WILL be worth it! And now that I've publicly announced it to the world (okay, well to you guys [and whoever you are I appreciate that you take time to read this]), I must keep at it! So wish me luck, and offer me and arm or massage when you see me lol. 

forever and a day

Last night while I was eating my kraft dinner and wieners I was thinking about all the things that I refuse to ever admit that I'm too old for, such as the a fore mentioned delicatessen. So here is my list;


-milk and cookies
-wearing my pajamas until noon or later on sunday
-eating the middle of the oreo first
-bubblegum
-popsicles
-sleepovers
-sleeping in a tent
-knock knock jokes
-putting chips in my sandwiches
-using twizzlers licorice as a straw
-hot chocolate and marshmallows
-roasting marshmallows
-singing along to the spice girls in the car
-making sundaes
-saturday morning cartoons
-birthday cake
-lip gloss
-shirley temples
-napping
-chocolate milk
-telling my pets my boy troubles
-playing loud music while cleaning my room
-bubblegum or cotton candy ice cream
-wearing un matching socks
-trying to avoid stepping on the cracks in the sidewalk
-saying cooties
-giggling


I'll add to this list as they come to me

you're just somebody that i used to know

hi guys! me again!
SO ... I love Pinterest! Don't even try to judge me because I know you love it too! Just incredible and I learn so much on there. If you don't know what I'm talking about grab yourself a glass of wine (tonights pick for me is Muskoka Lakes Cranberry Blueberry), google Pinterest, and enjoy! 


Anyways so my life is good. I'm looking at some prospective buildings this week and hoping to find my perfect spa location and start up on my own! I mean it's now or never right? I'm very excited and can't wait to have more to tell you! 


Ava has her FINAL puppy class tomorrow! She's getting to big!! Just love her :) I must admit I'm kind of nervous for classes to be over! She does so well there and she and I have learned so much! But if she does something bad I know that I have mondays class to talk to her teacher and find out exactly how to correct it, and I'm losing that! It's like my security blanket. Ah well, we will be fine and there are always more classes to take! 


Well just a short post from me tonight, I'm off to watch Adeles Live at Royal Albert Hall. And no, we're not watching the Superbowl... we don't have cable. Kind of sad actually. But thankfully I only watch it for the good commercials and the half time show... and let's face it, I hate Madonna. I do think it is time to get cable though... I mean I didn't even know what The Woman in Black was. Thankfully I watched the trailer on YouTube and am still having nightmares and will never, EVER be watching that film. Yikes! :/ Thank you YouTube for saving me from wetting my pants (or worse) in a public theater. 


I'm off to sing and cry my heart out !

keep in touch with your feelings

well official last day at the bronze is February 13... what to do, what to do. I hate job searching. It's so intimidating and then all you can think about after is whether or not you did a good job, and impressed someone enough to give you a shot. 


Speaking of giving a shot... I've started a new consideration chapter in my wonderfully indecisive life... Journalism school. I have 10 days... (almost 9 now, shit) to apply! I actually have no idea what, if anything, would come of it, but I just for some reason am drawn to the enticement of the whole thing! Why not, I mean I love to write, and ramble, and share my ideas or aspirations, so why not learn to do this impressively, and grammatically correct! Obviously every girls dream is to become editor in chief at Cosmopolitan magazine, and live in a high rise loft New York City apartment... but someday that WILL be me :)


Anyways wait about 9 more days and I'll tell you more about it. One benefit is that this would be an awesome addition to my fifty-two and then some! 


So beyond that, life is going well! Ava has successfully completed two puppy peer group classes now. And last class we were joined by another Rotti which was quite pleasing to the aviator (her new nickname). She can now sit, lay down, 'leave it', and 'watch me'. I'm a proud parent. 


I wonder what it will be like to become an immigrant... (yes I'm back to the New York City dream again). I think it would be similar, if not better, than what Heaven will be like, (that's assuming I get in... I heard that people with tattoos don't get in!). Anyways, I think there would be nothing better than never having to drive, always having somewhere to go for a drink in the middle of the night, have lattes available every block, and be able to always wear a dress, heels, and lipstick! I hope Adam will survive the city. He's so sweet and quiet, the American women will be all over him... I'll have to keep a close eye! I hope he decides to wear a suit every day.. yum :) 


I will definitely miss Canada :( If you're reading this Canada, I think you are perfect. I will never BE an American.. even if I live in a beautiful, $2800 monthly, high rise, loft apartment in NYC! I'm a Canadian girl at heart. Man I don't want to pay for healthcare.. crap. 


I added some colour to our lives. I made turquoise pillows for our living room not quite finished) and I got bright orange sheets and blue pillow cases and it makes me able to pretend I'm waking up in the Mayan Riviera every morning! Definitely feel more refreshed everyday :)


We had Chinese for supper tonight and it was delicious. I'm beyond uncomfortably full and there's a cold beer sitting beside my laptop pleading to be touched.. (maybe I should write Erotica after Journalism school [just kidding Mom! and Lynda! and Papa!]). So anyways there was a point to this.. I had already finished my blog, I thought, when I became stumped on a title, so I asked Adam and he suggested I open my fortune cookie and title it with my fortune. So voila! 

Well, Adam and I found 8Mile on Netflix so we're off to grab a cold beer and watch Eminem be angry! Love that movie! OH and P.S I got a tip today that a local hotel is going to be hosting a place for cooking classes so Beth and I are going to look into taking it together!! OHH and P.P.S... BRANGELINA IS PREGNANT :/ oh my. (and Beyonce and Jay-Z are filming a music video in space). 

and then there were none

So some of you know that I was putting in an offer to buy the tanning salon where I work. Tanning is very busy in the winter and Esthetics is very busy in the summer so it was the perfect combination for a successful business. Unfortunately someone came along and offered much more than I was willing or that it was worth. This has been a huge lesson for me though. I have spent the past 15 hours sulking, crying, and feeling completely inadequate. And really, all I should have done was brushed it off and said that my day would come.


Its hard not to put everything you have into something when you feel so good about it. This was by far the most 'grown up' thing I have ever done. I had the financing, a lawyer, and a business plan, and yet still come out of this being told 'you're so young'. Nothing frustrates me more than being told that. I was there for every single one of my birthdays and I know exactly how old I am. I don't believe that age has anything to do with how successful you will be at something. Whether it's owning a business, having a baby, getting married, moving across the country, who cares. If you feel like you can do it, then go for it! But don't put everything into it. Always have a little bit of fear in the back of your mind just in case it doesn't work out. 


I was so over confident about this. I had picked a new building to move it to, I had made a new price list, I had paint picked and lighting and ways to keep the current clients happy as well as recruit new ones. But all of this hard work just left me looking and feeling like an ass. Too confident. 


The worst part of it all is the person who beat me to it 'comes from money'. What the hell is that supposed to mean. I have worked since I was 13 and I have never had a problem paying my bills or being able to go out and enjoy my life, but I also come from a family who is modest. I was never raised to flaunt whether or not you had money, or to treat people differently based on their financial positions. But unfortunately that's exactly what matters in the harsh reality of the real world. You knowingly have money, you get what you want. And you can throw away money and over pay for things that aren't worth near what you're paying just because you have it and there's no reason for you not to. Genuinely giving a sh*t about something doesn't get you anywhere is what I have learned. 


Anyways I am just rambling on about this because I needed to get it out before it drove me crazy and caused me to start drinking in the morning. I am still determined to open up my own place but this time I will be smarter. I won't get my hopes up, I won't trust people, and I'll listen to the important people in my life who believe that I CAN do this. 


(and I would just like to thank my Grandpa [although he will probably never read this] for all his love and support, and his never failing words of wisdom)

stop and smell the roses

MONDAY! For those of you who read this, you know that that means Ava starts school today :) I am definitely looking forward to this! Hopefully she enjoys it and makes some puppy friends!

I'm watching a movie called 'Never Let Me Go' on netflix. It's a movie about kids who grow up in a small school community called Halisham, and are only made in order to be organ donors. They don't get to experience life, or love, or their first job, or their first broken heart. They don't get to decide what they want to be or where they want to live. They don't get to travel, or move, or meet new people. It is really an eye opener about how lucky we are. We have so much freedom, and we have so many opportunities. We can be whoever we want to be, no matter who that is. People respect our decisions, and help us to improve the bad ones. It really is amazing how far things have come!

Anyways, there is a lot of excitement going on in my life at the moment and I can't wait to share it with you when all decisions are finalized and things are set in stone! 2012 really is going to be a great year for me, and I hope it is for you as well! I just wanted to write a quick blog and let you know that I haven't forgotten about you! I added a couple things to my fifty-two's so check them out!

you say all the right things

On somewhat frequent occasions, I seem to have really deep conversations, with whoever will listen... (including Milo [refer to previous blog). So tonight for some reason I decided to have a total heart to heart with Adam about why we let ourselves fall so in love with people that we are just setting ourselves up for heartbreak when we lose them. I'm referring to everyone in your life, not just your significant other.. your best friends, and your pets.

My pets were actually the cause of this conversation. Ava is sleeping in her crate right now, with the door open, and she went in there all on her own! It made us so happy and proud! And then Rozzy climbed on my lap and tried to steal the straw from my rockstar (possibly why I'm having these deep thoughts lol)..like he does every time either of us has a straw [he even manages to somehow find straws that we never even knew were around] and anyways back to the point, that was when I realized that some day I will lose them, and they will never be able to be replaced. No pet will have Milo's snuggles, or Roz's growly meow, or Ava's 'ava eyes' (her personalized version of puppy dog eyes ... gets her kisses every time).  

Anyways this story, like all of my favourite stories, does have a happy ending. I'm not some dark, twisted, depressed young girl.. Adam once made fun of me about thinking the world exists solely of rainbows and butterflies. So I was expressing these immoral, heartbreaking feelings... and Adam, dear sweet Adam simply quotes 'well hunnie, it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all'.

And that, my friends, is why we let ourselves fall.

great..need a kleenex.